Lindsey with my children during our week in Conroe with the Pipkins:

Lindsey is only 16-years-old, and she is amazing with children.
She has a raw natural talent to understand and love children.
I love seeing someone’s raw talent shine through them
like a sun shining through glass.

What if you were exactly the person you wanted to be?  What if, at every moment, you acted like you felt you should act and not follow the path of least resistance?  Would you find the new you boring and predictable, living a life with no accidental detours?  Or would you like this you who was responsible and reliable, heading towards your planned dreams because you always acted in accordance with them?  Would you become insufferable and judgmental because you never give into the ice cream and deep fried foods like other, weaker-willed, people do?

I actually don’t know the answers to these questions because I don’t have the sustained willpower required to be this sort of person.  I bend towards temptation with a natural ease: I eat the nine cookies one after another; I surf the web when I should be cleaning; I take the children to McDonald’s instead of cooking them a healthy breakfast.  I don’t head towards my dreams and my goals with single-minded determination.

Sometimes I wish I did.  But then I wonder, would I like that version of me?  I’m pretty fond of myself as I am.  What about that version of me?  Would I still be me — quirky and slightly chaotic?

It would be a fun experiment.  What would I be like?  Is it possible to be quirky and slightly chaotic as well as reliable and determined?  The funny thing is: I don’t think I have the willpower to run the experiment for even a few days. 🙂

It would be fun to try though…