\n04 August 2008
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<\/p>\nLily in her Cinderella dress holding baby Cinderella.
\n04 August 2008
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After a long, anticipated wait by our three-year-old daughter, the next Ariel movie, Ariel’s Beginning<\/em>, was released this past Tuesday.\u00c2\u00a0 Super Daddy bought it on the sly and put it on after dinner as a surprise.<\/p>\n I cried.\u00c2\u00a0 Yes, a direct-to-DVD Disney movie made me cry.\u00c2\u00a0 When the whole family was together Tuesday night, I hid my tears because… well, because that’s what we do in this society, isn’t it?\u00c2\u00a0 But the next day, when Matt was at work and Lily watched it again, I got the lump in my throat again when King Triton races to Ariel and holds her unconscious body in his arms.\u00c2\u00a0 And this time, since there was no one watching and therefore no need to hide my emotions, I cried.\u00c2\u00a0 Once I gave myself permission, I sobbed like a little baby.<\/p>\n And I realized that I wasn’t crying simply because it was an emotional scene in the movie.\u00c2\u00a0 That was merely the vehicle that finally brought all my sadness out from under the rock where I had been keeping it.\u00c2\u00a0 I was crying because of all the crap <\/em>that has happened this past month.\u00c2\u00a0 I was crying because my ITP has gotten worse and my hematologist has recommended a splenectomy.\u00c2\u00a0 I was crying because I gave into societal pressure and tried to wean Damian, and the extreme pain of weaning too soon was acute for both of us.\u00c2\u00a0 I was crying because I had been dealing with the intense fear of putting my writing and my ego up on the internet.\u00c2\u00a0 I was crying because my beloved cat of 11 years was violently killed by a dog right before my eyes.\u00c2\u00a0 I was crying because when you’re a parent of young children, you have to keep your shit together no matter what you’re feeling on the\u00c2\u00a0inside so you can do the laundry and feed the children and make sure the bills are paid on time.<\/p>\n I was crying because I desperately needed to cry and the movie finally gave me an opportunity.\u00c2\u00a0 And that’s when I realized that sad movies are sometimes more than just storytelling; sometimes they are a cathartic release of emotion.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Lily in her Cinderella dress holding baby Cinderella. 04 August 2008 After a long, anticipated wait by our three-year-old daughter, the next Ariel movie, Ariel’s Beginning, was released this past Tuesday.\u00c2\u00a0 Super Daddy bought it on the sly and put it on after dinner as a surprise. I cried.\u00c2\u00a0 Yes, a direct-to-DVD Disney movie made […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6,13],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-312","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-podcast","category-surburbia"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/312","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=312"}],"version-history":[{"count":13,"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/312\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":314,"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/312\/revisions\/314"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=312"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=312"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=312"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}