{"id":62,"date":"2007-03-02T14:57:14","date_gmt":"2007-03-02T20:57:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/angel\/blog\/?p=62"},"modified":"2007-03-03T14:16:45","modified_gmt":"2007-03-03T20:16:45","slug":"flowing-with-chaos","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/?p=62","title":{"rendered":"Flowing with Chaos"},"content":{"rendered":"

\nLily being uber-cute.
\n(This is not a staged photograph.
\nThis is just Lily being Lily.
\nShe is, of course, my hero now.
\nShe wears what she wants when she wants
\nwithout any regard to what others may think of her.)
\n17 February 2007<\/div>\n

I was living a life of frustration. I would wake up in the morning, full of hope and plans, and by the evening, I was frustrated, annoyed, irritable, and not much fun to be around.<\/p>\n

How did I manage this, you ask?\u00c2\u00a0 By being inflexible with two small children.\u00c2\u00a0 By trying to force them into an adult schedule.\u00c2\u00a0 By having a rigid plan.<\/p>\n

I\u00c2\u00a0would wake up with an idea in my head of what I would get done that day.\u00c2\u00a0 “Today, I’m catching up on my emails, balancing the check register, cleaning the bathrooms, and making a gourmet dinner.”<\/p>\n

So, appropriately, I would sit down at my desk to answer emails.\u00c2\u00a0 Then Lily would start crawling all over the desk because she wanted attention.\u00c2\u00a0 I would endure her presence, annoyed the whole time,\u00c2\u00a0for a little while until she did some final thing, like pressing the sleep button on my computer and crashing the computer, that would send me over the edge and I would yell at her and send her out of the room.<\/p>\n

At this point I would be\u00c2\u00a0feeling guilty as well as annoyed, but\u00c2\u00a0I would push on,\u00c2\u00a0trying to finish the emails.\u00c2\u00a0 Then the baby would start crying.\u00c2\u00a0 Instead of spending time with my baby, I would run in the other room, try to shush him with the pacifier, and then run back to my computer to work.<\/p>\n

This is how the entire day would go.\u00c2\u00a0 The day would end with\u00c2\u00a0nothing on the to-do list completed, and Matt would come home to a really grumpy wife.\u00c2\u00a0 It wasn’t working for anyone.<\/p>\n

Then two days ago, I realized that I was shushing my baby to finish emails and that my baby was much more precious and something to be enjoyed now<\/em>.\u00c2\u00a0 So I gave up.\u00c2\u00a0 I decided to flow with the chaos.<\/p>\n

So now, nothing gets done just like before — the house is still messy, dinners are still not being made, the emails are going unanswered.\u00c2\u00a0 But I’m a lot happier about it.\u00c2\u00a0 And so are the children and Matt.<\/p>\n

Zen and the art of raising children.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Lily being uber-cute. (This is not a staged photograph. This is just Lily being Lily. She is, of course, my hero now. She wears what she wants when she wants without any regard to what others may think of her.) 17 February 2007 I was living a life of frustration. I would wake up in […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-62","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-general"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/62","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=62"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/62\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=62"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=62"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=62"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}