{"id":753,"date":"2002-10-06T00:38:00","date_gmt":"2002-10-06T06:38:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/?p=753"},"modified":"2002-10-06T00:38:00","modified_gmt":"2002-10-06T06:38:00","slug":"fights","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/?p=753","title":{"rendered":"Fights"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Matt and I are having a fight, but he doesn&#8217;t know why and I don&#8217;t know why.  That&#8217;s the horror of being female.  We&#8217;re driven by forces that we don&#8217;t even understand or particularly like.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m annoyed with him&#8230; scared, unsure&#8230; in a dark place&#8230; annoyed with myself&#8230; annoyed with our situation.<\/p>\n<p>I wish I could find my way out of this darkness.  And I have the extra burden of knowing I&#8217;m dragging another person through it with me.  That isn&#8217;t helping the situation.  Now I feel guilty on top of feeling down.<\/p>\n<p>This particular depression is new, and so I&#8217;m having a hell of a time combating it.  All my old tricks aren&#8217;t working.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230; and now Matt is tasting it too&#8230; I&#8217;m feeding it to him&#8230; he just wants to be a caring husband&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p>but I won&#8217;t let him.<\/p>\n<p>I won&#8217;t let myself&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p>Chained to the wall by invisible self-made shackles.  But how can I undo the shackles when I can&#8217;t even see what they are made from?  If I don&#8217;t know what the problem is, how can I fix it?<\/p>\n<p>Poor Matt&#8230;. poor me&#8230;.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Matt and I are having a fight, but he doesn&#8217;t know why and I don&#8217;t know why. That&#8217;s the horror of being female. We&#8217;re driven by forces that we don&#8217;t even understand or particularly like. I&#8217;m annoyed with him&#8230; scared, unsure&#8230; in a dark place&#8230; annoyed with myself&#8230; annoyed with our situation. I wish I [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-753","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-general"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/753","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=753"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/753\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=753"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=753"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.angelsdesk.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=753"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}