Lily
01 September 2006

So, at the baby’s naptime, I sat down at my computer to write. I pulled out my poor unfinished novel, and, as I was reading over it, I saw it in a new light.

I didn’t want to finish it.  I didn’t want to do it.  The obsession was missing.  The desire, the drive — the need — had vanished.

Isn’t that weird? 

I always thought it was to be a life achievement for me, to write a book.  But perhaps it’s not.  It just goes to show you that you should never assume anything about the future.  Live in the now.  Enjoy the now and don’t waste your life sitting in anticipation of the future because the future may be nothing like you imagine.

Well, that’s one 2006 goal taken care of.  That’s the funny things about goals as well: they are liquid.  I suppose some folks have goals that are as solid and unmoving as mountains, but not mine.  My goals are a stream in a forest meadow and the dappled sunlight dances off their constant movement.

Where does that leave my urge to write?  Who knows.  Who knows what tomorrow holds, or where desire will lead me.

Right now, I have a desire to get projects completed and the house ready for this baby.  I am definitely in the hard-core nesting phase of pregnancy.  I am constantly cleaning and organizing.  I am 30-weeks pregnant.  Lily was born at 38 weeks.  If this baby comes around the same time, then I have only 8 weeks left!

And I still have one more 2006 resolution to complete: get off sugar.  I think I might switch that one to: live a healthier lifestyle.  However, “live a healthier lifestyle” is too nebulous to be a goal.  It needs to be more concrete.  Something like “eat smaller portions and exercise.”

Americans, and Texans in particular, eat huge portions.  It’s quite silly how much food we put on our plate or how much is served to us at a restaurant.

Well, anyways, blah blah blah.  This has become a very meandering entry.  I think it’s time to stop and think things through in a more private medium.

Okay, I tried to do a quick and dirty job at a Thanksgiving theme, but it looked like shite.  Say it with me, “shite.”  So I just grabbed one of the themes that came with the latest WordPress download.

There’s some really cool design out there.  Themes are neat.  I love the idea of skinning your site… or re-skinning your site whenever the mood hits you.  There’s even a WordPress plug-in that allows you, the surfer, to skin the site in whatever theme suits you.  I have already decided to play with that plug-in when time allows.

Of course, with a second baby coming along soon, playing with plug-ins may be years off… seriously.  In two to three months from now, my life will belong to my children for a couple of years.  As they get older, I will slowly gain some time back to myself, but for a few years, I belong to these two little human beings.  “Mommy” will be my only identity for awhile.

Good thing there are lovely WordPress themes developed by the community to satisfy my need to change the look of my website.  I won’t have the time to do the work myself.

Lily helps me set the table every night for dinner.
Recently, she’s been putting her stuffed animals and dollies in the chairs.
In this picture, you can see a dollie in each seat,
or at least you can see the top of the dollie’s head.
26 October 2006

I just realized that I need to change my WordPress theme now that Halloween is over.  That passed quickly, didn’t it?  I guess I should do a Thanksgiving theme.  A Christmas theme would be easier because there is so many cute Christmas icons out on the web, but really, I can’t skip Thanksgiving.  The stores are already doing that for us.

By the way, I never did export this Halloween WordPress theme.  That doesn’t mean I won’t ever, just means I won’t for Halloween 2006. 🙂

Some interesting photos from Halloween last night:

Halloween at Lakeline Mall
31 October 2006

So I ask Matt after I notice the camera flash going off a couple of times last night, “Are you taking pictures of my butt?” He pauses for a moment, trying to make sure he gives the right answer, and then says, “Yes.”

Here’s another picture he took:

Halloween at Lakeline Mall
31 October 2006

There’s not a single picture from last night that has my face in it.  Lily is the rock star now, and I’m just with the band. 🙂