Sleeping Cuteness:

 

The kids sleeping.
06 January 2007

 

Daddy and baby Damian sleeping.
11 January 2007

Hormones are a Bitch:

So right before Damian was born — for a few weeks — I felt powerful and beautiful.  And now that he is out of me and all my hormones are out-of-whack, I feel insecure and ugly.

Men don’t understand this in women.  They don’t have the crazy hormone fluctuations that we do, so these whacky mood swings in women confuse the heck out of men.  It’s annoying for us as well.

I prefer the powerful and beautiful hormonal emotional stage.  The insecure, irratated and moody stage bites.  And I think Matt would agree with me. 😉

For example, Matt claimed a little bit of real estate on my computer.  It’s not easy for me to give up anything on my computer.  I deleted the shortcut to his program twice before my mind clicked, “Hey, he’s given me an entire room just for my hobbies.  He built me an amazing computer.  Surely I can allow him to have a program shortcut on my computer, especially since he doesn’t even have a computer at home.”

This is how the moody, insecure, irratated me behaves (deleting Matt’s shortcut).  Not very nice.  At least I’m aware of it so I can keep it somewhat in check.  It still spills out at the edges and creeps across the room with tiny black tendrils, looking for something to be pissed off at or some way to degrade and belittle my self-worth.

Men really don’t understand this, and I don’t blame them.  It is kind of weird to switch personalities every couple of weeks depending on where you are in your cycle.

Hopefully I’ll be feeling powerful and beautiful again soon.  I like that place. :)